Hi!!! Love this website so much and so happy you decided to go for it and make this. I have recently been thinking a lot about pursuing the dreams I have had for years that I have been too afraid to start. I feel excited to actually do something but fear is real and it’s particularly paralyzing at times. Working on making small steps forward each day and not being motivated by the end goal. Love you <3

-Alex Mcirvin

There are so many places I could start that I am a bit overwhelmed. So, I'll start by participating in this blog, in the present, and in life with love. Aside from the pandemic, I've been dealing with a partial death of self that began when my 3 1/2 year relationship ended in November 2019. He broke up with me after a work trip to LA. I was devastated. I considered him to be my best friend, the man I would spend my life with, and I miss him everyday. Our breakup triggered an outpour of repressed emotions that I have had to work tirelessly to navigate, reconcile, and control. I'm not proud of every moment since, but I am proud of the progress i've made. In short, I've moved, totaled a car, bought a new car, been ghosted on by my therapist, applied to numerous Bachelor's programs, started riding my bike again, and made friends with my new neighbors. While I watch elements of my life fade away, I actively participate in the development and strengthening of others. Each day I do my best to purge and clean in anticipation of what is yet to be. It brings me solace to know I am not alone in my journey, as it should. How wonderfully normal that feels. Thank you for providing a space to share our thoughts, feelings, and experiences Katie!

-A J

It’s never been more apparent to me how much relationships affect our lives. In fact, during this time, I have found that relationships are all I have. At first this “shelter at home” policy made me feel trapped...with no where to go and nothing to look forward to. However, over the past 2 weeks, I have tried to change my perspective and try and envision a lesson God may be trying to reveal to me. I have realized I truly have everything I need...and I’ve had it all along. Relationships! Although our relationships may only (currently) consist of FaceTiming, texting, ZOOM meetups, or phone calls where I’m crying one minute and laughing the next, these relationships have truly saved me! It’s a blessing to see how little I truly do need in life to survive if I’m surrounded (whether in person or virtual) by those who make my life more beautiful. Without the relationships I have, I wouldn’t be who I am today. I would still feel trapped and lonely. Relationships complete me. I am so much more when I share myself with others and get so much more out of life when other share themselves.
THANK YOU Katie for sharing a glimpse into your life. Your writing is beautiful, your voice is moving and your stories are a part of my happiness. My relationship with you has been one of God’s greatest blessing to me. Keep being you and doing you-God spent extra time on you! I love you! <3

-Whitney Holland

when people asks me what I am feeling, I have no answer for them. 
I don't feel anything, and now matter how strong I want to, I don't. 
I wish I could feel love, worry, happiness, sadness, madness, but I don't. 
I wish someone could break my heart, just to feel something. 
I wish I could run a marathon, just to feel my heart beat, just to make sure I have one. 
I wish I could just feel it, when people tell me they love me. 
I wish I could feel it when they say I changed their life. 
I wish I could just feel, anything. 
I love life it's amazing, and I wish I could feel it.
The worst thing about not feeling things, is that you don't get to connect to the most important things in your life. I don't feel my days, I don't feel my body. It is like watching a movie where everything around me is playing a role, but nothing of it is real. I can't even cry about it, because I don't get to cry. No matter how hard people try to hurt me, no matter how sad the situation is, I won't cry. I won't feel it enough to cry about it. I am dreaming about crying. I want to know what it is like, to cry of sadness.I love people, I do everything I can for them to be happy, I wish I could feel it. Now matter how hard I try to feel something, nothing is coming. I hate myself for that, I hate that people around me have to deal with me, I hate that I can't give them more, I hate that they worry about me. I know this it not who I am, but this part of me, that I've been looking for, this button to activate my feeling, is nowhere to be found. I hope one day we will find each other, and it will hurt because it was gone for to long. I have a lot of hope for the future. I know I will be able to feel something one day. I pray for it. All the time. I know God will answers to this prayer, because when I pray, it is the only time where I feel something.

-anonymous

For so long my story seemed like too much to explain. Too complicated, too painful and too confusing. I always wanted to explain to people how much God changed my life, but couldn’t even begin to find the words for it. Again, too complicated and too hard, etc etc. Then I realized something, I realized why it was so hard to explain. It’s because my life before Jesus and after Jesus don’t even connect. There really is no words to explain what he did. It’s night and day. Jesus didn’t change my life, he gave me a new life.

-Kitlena Joy